My boys

I've been thinking a lot recently about how incredibly blessed I am. I've got my three boys (Chris, Collin and Ethan) and I love them each so much! With this past Monday being Memorial Day, I've felt the ache for Collin to be here with us now, however, at the same time I've felt such peace and happiness knowing that we can be together again. I missed going to visit Collin's grave on Monday and am grateful that both Chris's family and my family were able to go. I am excited to take Ethan there later in June. I love to show Ethan pictures of Collin and tell him all about his big brother. 

I am so grateful to be a mom. I absolutely LOVE everything about it! I LOVE that I can bring a smile to Ethan's face or comfort him when he is sad. I LOVE that he reaches up to touch my neck when I am feeding him. I LOVE that he wants me to talk to him. I LOVE that he sleeps best in my arms. I LOVE to hug and kiss him. Mother's Day this year was different from last year. Last year, I felt so much love for Collin and at the same time so much sadness that my arms were empty. This year, Ethan brought me the greatest gift as he filled my arms with such immense love. I didn't realize that being Ethan's mom would bring me so much joy.

Ethan is now over 3 months old. At 3 months, Ethan:

- has the cutest smile! ...but for some reason doesn't like to smile for the camera...we're working on it

- has found his fists and LOVES to suck/chew on them

- has begun to slobber...a lot

- has started to jibber jabber

- is an awesome night sleeper (goes down around 8 PM, wakes up twice to eat and falls right back to sleep until 8ish AM)

- isn't on any set nap schedule. Some days he naps a lot, other days hardly at all.

- loves to have his head rubbed, especially by his dad. 

- loves to see the world. He is such a curious baby and loves to look around at everything