Updates

We got a shadow box made for Collin. I love it. I will post pictures very soon. We included his blanket, hat, diapers, all three of our wrist bands from the hospital, pictures, hand and footprints, hand and foot moldings, and his little name card from the NICU. I look at it every day. It's not that I need help remembering Collin, I just like to look at it. I still miss him so much.

Also, we heard good news about the tests from the doctors. They have the results and we are meeting with the Doctor on Friday. She told us that the results are good news and that she believes with future pregnancy they can prevent this from happening again. She said she will give us more information on Friday when we meet so I will update everyone then. We are so grateful to the incredible doctors for everything they have done for our little family!

On another note, Chris is beginning his study for the GMAT. I got really lucky because he is such a hard worker and really smart : ). Chris is in his last semester at BYU. Yay! This is a busy semester for him because he is the president of the finance society, plus he has all his school work, plus he is studying for the GMAT.

Work has been going well for me. I am anxious to finish going through the rest of our boxes and getting everything organized in our house. I wish I was crafty and good at decorating but I am most definitely not. Hopefully I will learn. I want to start drawing. I took art in High School and also took art lessons when I was younger - it seems like something fun to start up again. I also want to start training for another marathon - more specifically the Salt Lake City marathon in April. Not counting my pathetic attempts at a mile last week, it's been a month and a half since I ran. I think that's the longest I have gone without running for over 3 years. Let's just say I have quite a bit of work a head of me. Getting out of shape is a much easier process than getting back in shape! Wish me luck ha.

One Month

Collin would be one month old today. Yesterday Chris and I went and visited his grave. Tears were definitely shed but I am so glad we went. The end of each new day seems like a triumph, because it seems like time is going by so slow. It seems like such a long time since I was able to hold Collin. Probably because I miss him so much. But at the same time it seems like just yesterday. It's weird how life is that way sometimes. Going by slow yet so fast. I don't know, I can't quite explain it.
Chris and I, we are doing good. Collin is always on our minds and we wish so much that we could still have him with us. But we are doing good.

Hookie

Last night Chris and I decided to play "hookie" or in other words hang out together and forget about our responsibilities for the night, ie Chris's homework and cleaning the house. We went and got dinner at Cafe Paesan. If you haven't been, you should definitely consider it, it was delicious! Then we went to Sleepy Ridge golf course. Chris was going to hit a bucket of balls while we chatted. The only problem was there were tons and I mean TONS of mosquitoes. So...we didn't last long at Sleepy Ridge. We also went on a walk. I LOVE going on walks. Thanks babe for playing "hookie" with me : )

Labor day + Back to work

Labor day, Chris and I were able to go boating with my family. It was a lot of fun to enjoy the lake! I wasn't able to actually do anything other than just sit in the boat, however I still had a great time. Chris, on the other hand, experienced quite the fall while jumping on the wakeboard which resulted in the a trip to the doctors to discover that he had blown a hole in his ear drum! The doctor let me take a look with the microscope thing and no mistaken there definitely was a huge hole. Chris was in quite a bit of pain but the doctors said it should heal fine within the next 4 weeks.


Also, on another note. Yesterday was my first day back at work. I really do enjoy my work and enjoy the people that I work with. However, it is really hard. A bunch of girls that I work with just had their babies. It's just hard going to work everyday when really more than anything I want to have Collin to take care of.

Collin's graveside service

On Saturday August 28, we held a graveside service for Collin. Planning a service like this is something we never ever imagined we would be required to do as a young married couple. Before the service actually began, Chris and I, along with our parents went to the mortuary where Collin was. I was able to wrap Collin in a blanket and place a picture of our little family, Chris, me and Collin, in his casket with him. At the service we had incredible support from our family and friends, for which I am so grateful. Both of Collin's grandpa's spoke at the service and there were two musical numbers by some of Collin's aunts and uncles. Overall it was a very touching and beautiful ceremony.


I wanted to include some more pictures of our sweet little boy. I miss Collin so much. He is always on my mind. I know he is where he is suppose to be. But I just wish he could have stayed with me.